Ok, so it has been a ridiculously long time since I've written on here, sorry for that! A lot has happened........ Let's see, at the end of june I was asked to move out of the place I was living and forced to move back in with my parents. I truly feel like the 1 step forward 16 steps back (yes I know that's not actually it) applies to me! I love my parents and I am very grateful for the help they give me and that they are always there for me, but at 28 years old it is embarassing to tell someone that I live with my parents. Hopefully with the opening of their restaurant, where I will be helping to manage, I will finally be making enough money to move out on my own again!
I have, ONCE AGAIN, re-entered into the dating scene, and so far I am unimpressed. I have always struggled with insecurities and I am trying to work on that, so its hard for me to be rejected. I really envy those women who can just walk into a room and grab everyone's attention, you know the ones, they get hit on and approached constantly. I'm sure if that happened to me I would eventually grow tired of it, but damn I just want to feel that for a little while. That being said, people never believe me when I tell them that I don't get hit on! Its true people! I mean, ok, yes occasionally I do get hit on, but its usually by someone who is not my type, or someone who is just looking for a hook-up. I'm told that I don't get hit on because I am "intimidating" because I am "tall and beautiful"! Well sidestepping the compliment, which I appreciate, maybe I don't want to be intimidating! Maybe I just want to be me, and enjoy life, and get hit on!!!!! Ugh! ok sorry, I'm done with that for now!
I've gained weight, about 20 pounds :( to me that's a lot, but according to everyone else you cant even tell that I've gained it. I love my friends for lying to me!!!! But now I'm trying to get back on track to lose it again! Wish me luck! ok, i think that's all I'm going to rant about for now! I'll hopefully be able to post again tomorrow!
